Who Is It Hurting Now?

I have had moments in my life when I have contributed by being compliant

I have reduced myself to make others feel brilliant or absent of fault

And I have given my heart uncritically to someone who could not see past their own devices

I have pretended to be less and denied myself to somehow make us compatible

I have challenged myself to look past the moment at times when things looked very bleak

I have questioned and resolved but have yet to acknowledge what really happened

And I let myself become undeniably jealous, afraid of your complete disregard for me

I have been the biggest hypocrite, been truly bizarre and changed all the rules

But who is it hurting now?