I am..

i am: who I am, regardless

i think: it’s OK to not have all the answers, all the time

i know: more than you think I do about things you would never imagine me knowing

i have: not always been a good daughter, sister, friend

i hate: losing control

i don't: feel like I have accomplished enough professionally

i can't: always say what I want to

i can: adjust my personality to get the best out of the people around me

i won't: let anyone push me too far, I know my limits

i will: usually think before I react

i miss: the freedom of being 19.. the endless possibilities.. but not the uncertainties

i fear: losing the people I love

i feel: like I am know who I am.. and don't need to be constantly reminded I am worthy

i hear: my self doubt at inappropriate times

i crave: the endorphin rush of intense competition

i wonder: how much will change, how quickly and where i will be this time next year

i regret: wasting so much time on being afraid

i love: how it all turned out

i dream: because I know that reality can be hard to handle on it's own

i long: to tell the truth always, without fear

i care: about the people in my life more than I let on

i always: hide a little bit of what I am feeling

i am not: always honest about what I need from others

i believe: that bitterness makes you ugly

i sing: a lot more than people know

i smile: because I am, for the most part, happy with my life

i laugh: whenever I can

i collect: hard learned lessons

i play: sports.. not mind games

i write: whenever I can.. but not nearly enough

i await: what..? whatever happens....

i trust: my instincts about people

i intend: to do better the next time

i search: for something to inspire me

i look: too far into the future and too deep into the past

i whisper: when I am overtired or feeling sorry for myself

i listen: to everything people tell me, even if it bores me

i ignore: the ambivalence I feel towards certain things

i conquer: whatever I set out to, it just takes time

i live: with my mistakes but never leave anything completely.. until it is finished